When I was youngster between the age of 5 and before hitting my puberty.. way before life started pouring more weight on my shoulder, life was way much easier.. i remember that i was a real free-spirit flying and playing in my own playground, i had no memory that lasted more than a couple of days, i was happy like a golden fish in a small glass bowl swimming tirelessly and effortlessly without such seemingly any sign of boredom.. i had a memory that lasted for 3 seconds, for that i never got bored of taking rounds in the same bowl, the scenery and life outside the pot always seemed anew and that has always put a smile om my face.. i was simply happy.. i was simply am..
Then i hit my puberty, or it hit me.. i don’t recall which statement is what i mean, but i guess we both hit each other.. it was this time when i discovered that my lower part has more can bring me some type of pleasure that was simple thrilling, that’s a new use next to taking a leak.. not only that, i also started to grow some feelings and natural unknown force of attraction towards beautiful teenagers from the opposite sex, that was a hell of a discovery.. it was like finding another use for my heart, and having feelings for something else than football and parents.. the unknown overwhelming force that up to this day, humans always stumble upon comprehending their feelings felt.. only few were able to get close to what is it like, love i mean.. but i am here to talk about the others!
Numb people, cold-faced, poker faced, stone heart.. people who we think don’t feel anything, but actually they are the ones who feel everything but choose not to express it.. the suppressors rangers, and they are by far countless or the vast majority of people we come across on every corner of our daily encounters in life.. it’s your watchman who greets you in the morning just because he have seen you, it’s the guy you who serves your cappuccino at starbucks, who falsely smiles and right down your name, and return to the regular frowned face as soon as you pay, it’s your colleague who smiles at you and murmurs you the good morning with a so-made up smile, and adjust his face back to normal once the forced things of every morning is over.. it’s the sales guy at the retail shop who welcomes you and thanks you at the end of your checkout, and you always thank him her back while looking at your mobile.. it’s simply all the forced up communications and life etiquette that we have to act and do everyday without slightly thinking to process it consciously. it’s every fake attempt that you are confined to by your people, to be accepted, supposedly respected, and be granted the status you worked hard on presenting the way you wish you’d be.. with the branded clothing and posh eye gazing, topped with the eye-shades, and complemented with your super made-up outlook that remotely relates to who you are..
You were taught that looking cold-faced and collected, and hardly acknowledging the existence of others is something that people will be associated with high power, and will always protect you from the danger of the outside existence, everyone wants a piece of you and running after you, and it’s really crucial to keep this outlook and maintain it, you need protection. You hardly acknowledge feelings, cause you have wired your brain not to feel, or express your childish attitude, or your innocent impulsive reaction to something good done for you, don’t forget about your walls, and your fortress.. remember the last time you pulled them down what happened, you were fucked!
Yes, let someone speak to you and never answer them back timely or never.. cause you need to maintain the upper hand, you need to feel the power of something seeking your revered attention, put on your eye-shades and drive your fancy car, and only wave with the tip of your fingers at the valet guy, cause you are not equal.. definitely you are not, cause i am sure he’s much happier than you are, and laughs more often than you do..
It’s nice to not acknowledge someone’s existence, and it’s always nice to note thank those who are trying to help you by being nice to you, though you mostly don’t deserve it.. your walls are really so important, don’t forget to bring them all along with you, and from time to time, just change their colors and maybe hang some artistic frames on them, they are really protecting you from the outside cruel world, you are safe inside your own enclosure..
I still remember when i couldn’t care less about others reactions, and didn’t have too much knowledge, rules and constraints put before me.. i was impulsive and enjoyed every bit of it, i didn’t mind speeding, cause i didn’t think of dying or accidents, i always did what i wanted to do, i was bolder, braver.. i was freer than i am now.. by the time i grew, the scenes of life have started to make sense before me, i got out of my safe circle of the family and had to face it all on my own, i learnt by time how to build walls, they were not nice at the beginning, people said i am silent or maybe shy.. and i was wondering and saying to myself.. “isn’t this what life has taught us as adolescents, walls” I grew even more, and matured more and knew from others that your walls can look brighter, and colorful that people may get deceived that you’re open, but don’t worry they are all in the same boat as you, they have painted their walls too.. and they call it life etiquette, you’ll enjoy it and will get used to it.. all what you have to do is just to follow suite, do what everyone else is doing and keep doing it until it becomes a habit..
Oh! inside your enclosure what to do, don’t worry about thinking.. you don’t have to do it, we will tell you what to do, we will fill every single space of your awakening time with things that naught your mind, and generate money for others.. thinking is old fashioned way to live in the contemporary world.. we will not tell you directly what to do, but we will subtly influence you what you think is missing out of your life, we will reshape it the way we think would generate more money for few, and keep the rest a replica of one another.. life style, eat, health, psychological, trends, gadgets, technology.. oh, we will fill your life of excitements and fill it with processed ingredients, we are working hard on disconnecting your soul from your mind and body.. we will make everything around you do the work.. we will usurp your will, and make you hire your will, and hire people to push you forward..
While you have just successfully stroke out your existence, and called off your brain and chose to be painted with the same brush as everyone else, you have successfully followed our tactful plans, and usurped your will, and implanted some useless dogmas that works for us and makes our lives richer by giving you time fillers for money.. You’re stupider than ever, and we are richer and happier than ever! Yet, you have also felt the same median feelings as everyone else, cause you simply never thought or experienced anything out of your fancy enclosure and bright walls!
How would you like your breakfast served Sir!
Till next time